I've done something basically 'impossible' and don't know how I feel about sharing it.
And now you know...
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Hi Reader!
I feel a little awkward sharing this and afraid that sharing it will make you think a certain way about me, or about yourself.
And maybe backfire in the message I'm trying to share.
But hiding it isn't right either...
So here goes...
Over 6 years ago I started a 'finish the year strong' challenge. Mostly as a way to create evidence to prove to myself that I was ready for what was next, the things I had dreamed up for myself.
This was wellness focused, move your body, drink your water, so that you were taking care of yourself before all those 'new year, new you' goals hit.
And as a mom still trying to figure things out and with glimmers of what would turn into Firefly Scout, this felt like the way to support myself across many fronts.
Showing up for myself every day in December led to streaking through January, February... and beyond.
2,500 days later, I'm still streaking.
And part of me is afraid to tell you that. Because in some ways it conveys the wrong message, seems too braggy.
That if you want it hard enough, you can do it too.
That I'm somehow special because I did something 'impossible' or I must be fudging things.
That my life must be pretty perfect to have time for something like that.
In my latest journal entry, I am sharing the story behind the streak.
The messy bits where I made it darn near impossible to maintain it, and the evolution to where it's much more sustainable and supportive.
Taking the time to reflect on the journey brought up a lot of surprising feelings, things that get lost in the day to day, walk to walk, but create a picture when you see it like a collage from a distance.
I'm still working through the pressure I put on myself to show up, to prove something- to myself, to the world, but now I have a long-running experiment that I've curated into a daily practice that helps me meet me where I'm at.
So even though I don't quite know how to share what I've done, by putting one foot in front of the other, I hope that it gives you spark to start listening and showing up for yourself.
See things from a different perspective
When you’re in the weeds, it can be hard to get a real sense of what you’re going through. Take a few steps back and see what changes when you take in the whole picture.
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This Week’s Field Observation
The runway for my streak actually started in October that year... 2 months of trying on the idea, putting my shoes on, testing the actions it would take to 'do it right'.
I can see why the challenge appealed to me- so much was changing in my life and in the literal season around me, that the steadiness a streak could create felt like a quiet answer to the season I was in.
You may not need a streak to support you right now, but if you need a nudge to help you notice what kind of experiment feels aligned for you for the season you're in, I'm opening up the Field Experiment Workshop audio replay for everyone on my list.
Available through 10/15.
Building a different relationship with myself on how to celebrate future milestones is something I'll dive into for our next season together, so I'll keep you posted.
For now, I hope my story inspires you to start showing up for yourself. Thanks for being in the field with me.
✦
